I'M BACK?

Wow it's been so long since I've last posted anything in my blog. So much has passed since my last entry. I feel like I need to start this back up again just so it's "one" of the things that helps ease my mind.
First off I just wanna thank all the friends who've been really supportive and been there for me when I need you guys the most. You guys are what brings me up through the day and you I'm always there to do the same. You guys know who you are. I ain't gonna do some asianave shoutout crap. LOL

Well I can't wait to get back to the gym on a regular basis. I've been working a lot to keep me busy from all the stressful and crazy shit that's been happening in my life. It just sucks to see things fade away when you've put so much time and effort so make things right. I fuckin hate selfish people. It drives me insane . Especially when they dont realize what you doing for. I need to move on (again) because I know I'm better than that. I think I'm gonna spend a few months out of the picture so I can rejuvenate. I feel like I'm breaking down in little pieces like a puzzle and I just need someone to out me back together.

Still have the mind set to move out of Winnipeg. I'm sick of this city and I dont really think there is anything for me here. Three picks, Toronto, Calgary, Vancouver. I have til' the end of next year to decide. I want it because I love change. I love change because I love variety.

......wow just passed out..(next morning)

Bad things always happen to good people.

If you were to ask me why do good things happen to bad people, I would have no clue how to answer it. You ask me why do bad things happen to good people, I could probably think of many reasons. I guess sometimes you have to think to yourself "did I put myself in this situation? and could have I avoided it?" I know that I've done a lot of negative things in the past years but I'm a good example of this topic for this year. I've done so much good deeds this year that its not even funny. I'm known to be friendly and caring but for some weird reason there will be somebody at some point of direction ready to take you for granted or just plain ol' fuck you over. But I guess all you can hope for is that when the time comes, it's just gonna be so much better in the long run. Just don't know when that will be.

Some people are selfish and don't acknowledge the people that care about them so much. That's my problem. I've had this problem even when I was growing up in my teen years. I have never had anyone say to me that I'm selfish. But I think the more you do the good things, the more appreciation you expect. As much as I want to be selfish and only think of myself, I'd just be lying to everyone. That's one of the tough parts of being a caring person. There are things that we deserve and don't deserve. Judging by all the good things that I've done the past few months, I'd say that I deserve a whole lot more in return. One of the worst things in life is to lose someones respect. Some people just don't realize it until it's gone. I'd hate for someone to lose my respect if it came to that because I'm one of the most caring person around. Ask my friends and family. =D

In other news.........just finished watching one of Russell Peters stand videos. He's one funny muthaf....

Man I just started last week but I've noticed that I've been working myself more at the gym and at home getting into shape than I did for the whole last year. I feel great. I always wonder if looking back to when I first took working out seriously like a few years back and I didnt have shit happen to me, where would i stand now? I'm gonna try so hard not to stop again. Because it's such a shame what I went through when I didn't workout.

wow-wa-we-wah....

I'm hyped about GSP fighting again to defend the title against Fag Hardy. I think he has no chance to beat GSP. This Saturday!! Same with the Frank Mir and Shane Carwin fight. Although I think Frank Mir is a real douchebag I still want him to win so he can fight(again and again) my man Brock Lesnar.

This week has been a real positive week for me. I've moved on with some of the troubles in my life and picked up a new hobby that I used to have been never had the motivation to do it. Going to the gym and just being in shape. I'm doing home exercises to which make me feel so good about my health. I haven't felt like this in so long. Today was the first day I stepped into Shapes and let me tell ya.. f*ck was I sore at the end but I love that feeling. Once I gain more mass I will look into doing a little tanning because it's not bad to look a little darker. I've set my bar so I'm gonna go a little hardcore for a full month. If I can physically notice any good difference then I'm gonna be happy. And to you out there, I'm glad we've became really good friends even after all the differences that has happened. I still love you deep in my heart as a person and don't ever forget that you're awesome. I feel great. And like GSP said:

"Have a new haircut, you look good...and when you look good you feel good.....and when you feel good you do good."

Until next time, keep fit and have fun.

Peace.

Good guys always win.... except in Socom. haha

Well It's been a long time since I've made another post on my blog. 2010 hasn't been the greatest of them all. It's actually been one of the worst starts. The shittiest part is that I don't feel any of it as fault. The things I do and did were all for the ones I love dearly. I don't think I've ever cared so much this year than any other year. Yes I'm 26 so maybe it's just part of growing up. I really need to get my effin stuff together though. Normally the things I do would beneifit more on my loved ones more than myself. I don't think I was raised that way.. I just think I created myself to be that way because of the heart I have. I'm a sucker for love. Who ain't right? People tell me to be selfish and to not care so much but it's hard because I've seen relationships like that and it NEVER works. Never. Two sides of the relationship have to balance and care for each other equally. If not, then it's a relationshieeeet. =P ..I was told that bad things always happen to the good guys which is true but how I think of it is that I'm due for better things to happen in the future. This is for the people who are selfish, stupid, and take people for granted... "You'll never realize it until it's gone."

The sun is starting to come out now which is awesome.. but I heard it was gonna snow again one more time. I don't remember when was the last time I went to the beach and shit like that. Who wants to come to Miami Beach with me? No not the Manitoba one. haha

Man on man it's been so long since the last time I was pursuing some kind of path for poker. I honestly don't know where I hit that wall to not continue it. I was doing so well until I hit that (brick,metal,electric,anything painful) wall and my passion for it just faded....temporarily. haha
I'm looking to start it up again but I have to pick my moments to where I can fit in again. How many people from Winnipeg can say they've played and met with poker pros like Daniel Negreanu, Vanessa Rousso, Antonio Esfandiari, Scotty Nguyen, and Johnny Chan? I had the pleasure of meeting with Jerry Yang who was the 2007 Main Event winner and guy has a heart bigger than mine. He's all about family, supporting kids for fundraising and donations. He's a great guy. How many can also say that they've competed in tournaments like the PCA(Pokerstars Caribbean Adventure) @ Atlantis Bahamas, $10K Main event in LasVegas and has a WSOP cash under his name? From what I can remember, I won my very first poker tournament in a reserve casino just outside of South Beach Miami, Florida. It was a smaller tournament but I think that was my motivation to continue playing poker. I remember coming back to Winnipeg and played in 3 tournaments at our local Club Regent Casino. Made 2 final tables out of the three i've played. Was a regular at the 5-10 no limit cash table and 10-20 limit table. So after all that ... I say I've done pretty well. I still can't get over how I lost in the Main Event. I will never get over it. I should have been a TV because that was a TV hand. haha

Playoffs for Senior Mens is coming 2-3 weeks so I have to get back into shape again.
Can't wait for the upset on River Blues. lol

On a last note. I hope everything will be okay with you.
Peace.

-Eldz

feeling good about not being sick..

I'm so glad that I'm not sick anymore. That H1N1 shit scare was super shitzo. I feel like I new person with so much energy. I was sick for more than 2 months. Had to go to the clinic like 6 or 7 times within a 3 month span. Not fun especially It was costing me like $50 in doc notes all that time. It funny because one of the doctors I saw actuallt got me to pay him right in the room. The note cost $10 and I had a 20 dollar bill. He whips out his stack of bills out of his white coat like he's also a drug dealer on something. Yes.... very sanitary as well. =P. I'm so glad that I can get back on track and do the things I enjoy now like getting back into shape for Senior Men's basketball and spending time with Jenn and family.

Christmas is in 8 days everyone!! Has everyone came close yet to finishing their gift shopping? I ain't even close. That's why we have 24 hour Wal-Mart and Superstore to the rescue. haha. I'm actually trying to budget my money this year especially when it comes to christmas time. I'm bad for that. I think I have like 15 people to buy...some of them they don't even know I'm buying for them which is kinda cool because I love it when I can make someone else happy. I hope to spend my Christmas when we did it last year. That was fun times. I'm looking forward to getting drunk... but please bros.... no hard shots! lol

NBA fantasy thoughts for today:
-Gasol is a beast on the boards. At least 20 rebounds 3 of last 4 games.
-Big Al was a disappointment tonight and my Stephen Jackson.
-LeBron is the shit! haha
-I still think they should play Elton Brand more. He could actually be out of the "Grant Hill" coma now.

It's like 6:26am and I haven't gotten any sleep yet. I'm going through that insomnia phase..AGAIN. I should try to sleep because I got work later in the afternoon. Catch you all later you owls.

-Eldz

Gettin' started with whats new to me...

This is my very first blog site and I'm trying to see if I can maintain this for as long as I could. I always have stuff on my mind and every time i write it or type it, I feel a lot better inside because I've been told that I'm a good communicator and talker. I'm very open-minded and not afraid to say what I feel needs to be said. When I don't say it it's because I think the situation is not worth it.

In my life, most of the time I've never been able to accomplish things in my life that I've started. So I hope I stick with this blog for a very long time. I love doing things for the first time. It's interesting. I try to live my life to the fullest. After 7 years in a relationship of missing out what means most to you all this time...It gets your mind thinking. I've had my share of stressful events and "bad timings". Trust me.. definitely not pleasant.

I love reading other peoples blogs because It sets your mind at a different level than others. Everyone has their different ideas and thoughts and it's interesting how they overcome the situations and issues they have in their lives. We all know that there is nothing wrong with a second opinion. The good thing is that you might even learn a little or two. =)

This is a starter blog so I hope to try to update this at least everyday. It would be a strong task for me....at least I know I have some fans out there. haha

til tomorrow.....I mean later tonight haha..... "Keep fit and have fun" - Hal Johnson & Joanne McLeod

Later scrabble biatches,
-eldz